Tonight I did something I have never done before, I walked out of a show I was supposed to perform or call it a showcase. Now here is the thing I’ve been rapping a solid 10 yrs seriously and have never walked out of a show, for any reason. By far this has been my most successful year financially as well as progression when it comes to entertainment, and some would say its getting a big head and others would say I did the right thing. I kind of disagree with both points as an artist I don’t believe in walking out on shows, because there was a point in time you would kill for a chance to go on stage and do your thing.Also there are a lot of snakes in this business that are about making money off the dreams that people have and you have to make a decision on what type of person you are to put up with the tatics used by these promoters. With that being said tonight made me want to seriously quit doing music not because of the venue or the promoters, or the crowd, or other artist.

It was because of me, I’ve done this for enough years that I’ve seen people be crazy about their status in the world and the possibility of where they could go and I never wanted to be that guy. So tonight leaving before performing mind you the circumstances in which I left were based upon the set being pushed back about 4 hours and being continuously lied to about the time. I didn’t cause a scene I just asked for the music back and thanked the guy for the opportunity to perform after continuously being told different things by this individual. I’m not really complaining about the delays but at a certain point you have to be upfront about where things stand.

I have always said I will get on any stage and perform and its not a problem, my requirements are really bare minimum I don’t mind opening, love going on first. Either way put me in situation I can prepare for, If I’m going last just tell me.

Now here is my problem with walking out, personally, I watched about 8-10 acts perform and it dawned on me I’m no longer here, the hunger to be heard in that manner is no longer there I agreed to do the show not because I wanted to do a show but because a friend called and asked me, yesterday. So as I’m watching these acts I see that fire to be heard the desire to just be out there. The excitement that comes from being able to say I got a show, now this year I don’t even know how many shows I’ve done and in the last 3 years I couldn’t count the numbers. I just know I’m not at the same place as the people performing last night. I know it sounds like I’m saying I’m better than people but its really not about that, some of the things I heard made me come to that conclusion. I invited a guy to my video shoot and he tells me “I will come through and give ya’ll a cameo” (Where I’m from we appreciate the opportunity to be invited to something and show love, but not acting as if a favor is being done).

Another guy got on stage and finished his show by telling the crowd to “meet him outside”. That may have been the moment I decided I couldn’t take it anymore. I believe in freedom to say you are toughest man to ever touch a mic and you are the hardest in the streets. I’ve always been able to ignore certain things but it all just came to me at one moment, my hunger is not like the same is theirs, I don’t care about being heard as much as I care about making good music and giving a good show. If I can’t give a good show then I would rather not perform at all. I put together my own show cd’s based on time not on songs, I actually try to make no two shows the same, incase you’ve seen me before. So as it got to the last part of the night and the video camera’s were on and all that I just decided that, I couldn’t give a great show and it was time for me to go. Sure I could have sucked it up and performed but would if have been a great show on my part, nooooooooooo!

Here is where it gets interesting though,its a growing moment for me because I will never do a show again that puts me in a position to decide to walk out unless its over money. I’m not knocking showcases or anyone who does them because they are viable opportunities to figure out your music. So I first apologize to any fans that are out there that I may have offended by these actions in the Houston area. Second I want it to be said that despite what things you may ever hear about me as an artist I am not an ego maniac nor do I knock anyone elses hustle. Just not that kind of hungry anymore, I’m still into doing shows, collab with anyone. I reiterate the fact that no one asked me to leave or was I verbally disrespected. I just saw a situation where I was being thrown shade, and made the executive decision that I put to much effort into building something that would be tarnished by disrespecting my own efforts. We feed off the energy of a crowd and when you’ve spent 4hrs listening to rap you don’t want to hear more.

So with that being said remember that you are always gonna have to stay hungry, but when you have nothing you’ll eat anything, when you begin to get something, you still can be hungry but you are able to eat at a table and have a meal. So if someone offers you scraps , you may very well politely decline because those scraps can feed someone else. You may not be that hungry and hopefully never again.

Peace.